What Alice Found There...

"Yahoo is like that stepmom everyone hates and this whole website is going to turn into a cheaper by..."

Sun, 02 Jun 2013 21:11:02 -0400

“Yahoo is like that stepmom everyone hates and this whole website is going to turn into a cheaper by the dozen movie where we end up putting raw meat under her chair and hoping the dog gets it”

- Weaklys’ rage teleports her back to Winter ‘05. (via yahooblrdotcom)

uoa: do you ever just get mad because you’re spending your only teenage years feeling like you want...

Fri, 26 Apr 2013 08:01:08 -0400

uoa:

do you ever just get mad because you’re spending your only teenage years feeling like you want to jump off a cliff while other people are having the time of their lives and being in love and just being good at things and you’re just kind of there

"Sometimes I can’t look you in the eye; you’re like a building that’s burned out inside, with the..."

Fri, 26 Apr 2013 00:21:29 -0400

“Sometimes I can’t look you in the eye; you’re like a building that’s burned out inside, with the outer walls still standing.”

- Anne Michaels, Fugitive Pieces (via larmoyante)

I think i’m depressed. I think i’ve been for a while, But it was jsut...

Sun, 31 Mar 2013 02:59:55 -0400

I think i’m depressed.

I think i’ve been for a while,

But it was jsut repressed.

Repressed by the chronic binge,

And the lack of restraint on my part.

I’ve held it off by holding off on the important things.

But it’s gone on too long

And I fear I will not be able to hold on much longer.

But hold onto what?

My sanity is a distant memory

And my high only lasts for a while.

I want to scream for help

but there’s no one to turn to.

The world is a lonely place.

Even in the most crowded of moments,

I’m all alone.

complexxbeauty: me.

Mon, 18 Mar 2013 17:28:54 -0400

complexxbeauty:

me.

sosuperawesome: http://rubyetc.tumblr.com This is the story of...

Fri, 08 Mar 2013 10:45:39 -0500

sosuperawesome:

http://rubyetc.tumblr.com

This is the story of my life though =O

chronicillnesscat: [Image: 6-piece blue colored background with...

Wed, 06 Mar 2013 00:22:23 -0500

chronicillnesscat:

[Image: 6-piece blue colored background with a Siamese cat.Text reads: “try new meds. vomit for 8 hours straight”]

well, a lot of good that one did me.

8 hours? more like 3 months until your body gets used to it -_-

I keep telling myself I’m going to start vlogging but I never complete the video edits. Why...

Tue, 05 Mar 2013 23:00:31 -0500

I keep telling myself I’m going to start vlogging but I never complete the video edits.

Why don’t I complete the video edits?

Because nothing repulses me more than the sight and sound of my own voice and gesticulation while speaking.

Dear God, will I ever get this off my to do list?! ugh….

Angry Ranting - Scroll On

Tue, 05 Mar 2013 18:09:34 -0500

theperksofbeingadanielle:

“Oh, this school won’t give you a hard time! You get to that school work whenever you can, don’t even worry about it!”
Bull. Fucking. Shit.

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This is soooooo me at the moment. I am supposed to hand in a letter from my doctor at the start of each semester to my lecturers but I can’t even bother. It really never changes the fact that work has been due and I have not completed it. -_-

I tend to keep forgetting that regular hospital visits aren’t normal so I always introduce...

Sun, 03 Mar 2013 21:45:44 -0500

I tend to keep forgetting that regular hospital visits aren’t normal so I always introduce this pic by saying “So I was in the hospital waiting room and OMG! LOOK AT THE CUTEST TINY PUPPY EVAAAA!” *shoves tablet in onlooker’s face*

This is when they completely ignore the midget of a puppy and go, “OMG! WHY WERE U IN THE HOSPITAL?! ARE YOU DYING AGAIN?!!”

me: no -__- doctors visit but anyways, PUPPY!!!!! *shoves it closer to face*

them: why were u at the doctor though. are you sick again?

me: i’m never not sick now back off my problems and stare at my puppy! *rageface*

them: O.O….. *looks* ahhhh! cute puppy!!!!!

me: -________________________-

Jennifer Lawrence on Silver Linings Playbook and the stigma of mental illness

Thu, 28 Feb 2013 08:01:01 -0500

Interviewer: What do you think this [Academy Award] means to people suffering with brain diseases like bipolar?
Jennifer Lawrence: I don’t think we’re gonna stop until we get rid of the stigma for mental illness. [...] And I hope that this helps. It’s just so bizarre how, in this world, if you have asthma you take asthma medicine. If you have diabetes you take diabetes medicine. But as soon as soon as you have to take medication for your mind, there’s such a stigma behind it.

I constantly dwell on this thought.

Tue, 26 Feb 2013 13:13:21 -0500

I constantly dwell on this thought.

I despise stupid mistakes

Tue, 26 Feb 2013 08:00:49 -0500

istealschoolproperty:

africanrelic:

I despise making them
I despise watching others make them
I despise the negative effects it has on the innocent
I despise how the make me feel
I despise how easily they could have been avoided
I despise that they weren’t avoided
I despise the fact that they are (at times) absolutely necessary in order for a lesson to be learned
Ugh

God help us all.

me at the moment.
*sigh

"Why do you live in your body like you will be given another? As if it were temporary. You starve it,..."

Thu, 21 Feb 2013 03:51:54 -0500

“Why do you live in your body like you will be given another? As if it were temporary. You starve it, you let anyone touch it, you berate it. Tell it that should be completely different. You tug at your soft flesh, wish it thinner, wish it gone. You fall in love with those who praise the way it sighs under their hands, but who praises the way it holds up your weight, even when you are falling apart?”

- Warsan Shire (via perfect)

Write 5 words then 7 words then 5 word and then 7 to explain a day in your life.

Sun, 17 Feb 2013 02:46:55 -0500

I’m awake but in bed.

My fibro pain runs through my head.

A plastic smile for today

Will get people out of my way.

What about you?

Don't Walk. Run out of Your Comfort Zone

Sat, 16 Feb 2013 19:38:55 -0500

Don't Walk. Run out of Your Comfort Zone:

As human beings, we are inherently afraid. Afraid of failure, afraid of what other people will think of us, afraid of being alone, afraid of change and the unknown, and afraid to let ourselves go and step outside of our comfortable little environment – our tight-knit circle of friends – never wanting to leave the path we’ve been told we’re “supposed” to take.

A great read for those of us who suffer from depression, anxiety, etc.

Chronic pain is hell. The emotional baggage that comes with it...

Mon, 11 Feb 2013 08:01:11 -0500

Chronic pain is hell. The emotional baggage that comes with it is even more hell. I am better off than most but that in no way lessens how much I ache each day.

I long for the freedom I lost over 8 years ago. I long to not be the sick kid. It may look like I’m sitting around, doing nothing, but I’m invisibly fighting off my demons and carving a path for me to follow. I want out of this and I am willing to do what it takes to get there.

Some may not understand, others may claim to but really don’t, few truly understand what it’s like to lose your teenage life to a chronic illness. Regular doctors visits become tedious. The idea of a new specialist brings both hope and dread. You cannot count the amount of times a new method of treatment has brought your hopes up and then crushed them.

It’s not easy following this path I never wanted to take but I’m trying to make my way out of the woods.

Outside Looking In

Mon, 11 Feb 2013 02:26:48 -0500

Sometimes I feel like I don’t belong. Persons and places claim that I own a spot but I still get overlooked and forgotten.

There are times when I have out of body experiences; like I’m on autopilot and I see where life’s taking me but I can never find the manual switch. So I watch all the causes and effects, unable to stop any of it.

Right now, I sense the oncoming storm but I am unprepared I have practically lost already due to the recent choices I’ve made. I question my motives and everything leads back to a lack of interest in life. But if that’s the case, why do I try so hard to please everyone?

I want an answer but I never find one. I want an answer. Can anyone help me get one?

Photo

Sat, 09 Feb 2013 08:01:09 -0500

Sometimes when we are pushing a brick wall, the wall is the only...

Wed, 06 Feb 2013 08:01:03 -0500

Sometimes when we are pushing a brick wall, the wall is the only thing that it keeping us stable.